As a child,  all I ever wanted to be was a mom.  I remember wanting a whole slew of children running around the house,  and pictured the Van Trapps from "The Sound of Music."  Of course,  I was going to be the best mom there ever was.  I was going to sew, sing,  play the guitar,  cook,  and play sports with my kids.  I was going to teach them how to make things from scratch,  have an amazing garden,  and go to every field trip,  game,  and concert my kids had.  There would be no yelling,  and my children were going to be angels......

Okay,  so I was a little dillusional!  First of all,  I didn't have the best example of what it fully meant to be a mom.  My own mom was never there for me. She had her reasons,  and it's unimportant at this point to mention.  But I was so convinced I was going to do better.   I went to college,  got a degree,  in Child Development no less,  and thought I was Set to go!  Poor,  sweet dillusional woman!  I had my first and he was pretty good.  I was ripe with knowledge and I knew what to do.  Of course,  I didn't account for the divorce,  or the stress of financial burdens,  and the role that alone would play on my parenting skills.  Then add in the fact that I didn't have my own parents to look to for guidance.  Boy,  was I lost!   I made a lot of mistakes,  and I cleaned up a lot of messes that I alone had created.  Throughout the next 10 years,  I married again,  in desperation just to have someone there to help.  He didn't turn out to be much more help then the family dog (which we have never had).   Although,  there was a time I did think I loved him,  it was never the kind of love I dreamed of.
So here I am the two time divorced,  mother of four beautifully smart,  talented,  independent, strong willed kids.  I got what I wanted.  I am a mom.  I AM BLESSED!
Only sometimes,  I feel like I'm failing miserably,  and these kids are going to end up worse off than me.  I look around on my social media,  and it tells me that this mom is doing this with  her kids,  and that mom did that.  Oh and THAT mom?  Yeah,  she has more kids,  and is running her own business....
We are constantly bombarded with images and messages of all the things we AREN'T.  So much so,  that we don't even stop to think about all that we ARE!
So,  this blog is going to be about my nature.  The things that I find come easy,  and the things that I struggle with in being a mom to kids that are just like me FULLY human,  and individual.  I want  it to be fun to read,  and maybe a little bit of help or support to you.  The real,  NATURAL mom who is overwhelmed at times,  but loves those little rugrats as much as your heart beats life in your body.  I might even actually get out some of those natural remedies,  and homemade junk I like so much!